Hello lil buddy Bob. Sure wish you were here now. I'm so tired of being alone. You know how it feels. You know all about it. I wanted to go out to dinner Friday after work. If you're not doing anything. I know a good place we can go. The weather is slowly changing Bob. It'll get here soon enough, the warmth, the sun. But it won't last long enough for any of us will it? The winter will return again here in the north as is the way. Makes one wonder this area hasn't been vacated long ago...guess we can't all live down south. I would have worked to help you get back to Florida. If we'd only had more time...taken more time, to talk about it. I'll talk to you later buddy. Think about you daily. From the depths lil buddy. Always. Thank you for taking the time to be my friend like you did. Hope you're in a sunny place now buddy. Hope upon hope I may see you again.
Hello li Bob. It's a clear blue sky today, not a cloud in sight, almost 60 degrees...a day that would have given you hope, perhaps for a brighter tomorrow as it tends to do for me...promise...hope...rebirth...So I wish you could have held on lil buddy. I'm so sorry you couldn't get through. I know you loved the sun and the warmth...these Michigan winters can really pull you down, drag you down. Oh I know buddy. I just feel so bad that I couldn't see you through it. And but I needed you to help me through it too lil Bob. I was planning on some boating and fishing on the lake with you in a few weeks...you and I buddy, on the lake, living in the moment, just fun man, just loving it...you know what I mean. Now...I don't know Bob, what to do. I'm just lost, not knowing. From the deep lil Bob. Love you like nothing else. Life is not easy for me either. I understand your utter despair. I do. I feel like giving up very frequently. But I still tend to retain an infinitesimal degree of hope. Somehow that hope was stripped from you. I'm so sorry lil Bob. I don't know how long I can take this either lil Bob. I'll just keep going...who knows. I totally get it buddy. I get it. From the deep lil buddy, always. I'm always here if you need me. Call anytime. You've got my number.
I have to say it Bob. You're the father I never had. There is no shame in saying simply, " I love you Bob Miller, and I always will. You were a greater, more memorable part of my existence". I shall grieve, I shall cry again and again, I shall regret, I shall cherish your friendship to my dying day. You were something buddy...not something I'll forget. I'll ride my motorcycle and think of you and "free spirit". I love you buddy. Soldier on buddy.
Hello buddy. Another Friday night...waiting on you to pull in and go out to dinner. I found a couple of new places I think you may like. It's good home style wholesome family dinner type food that you enjoy. The treat is on me tonight okay Bob? Is that okay with you? I want to treat. You've been so great to me buddy. I need to show my appreciation. I know I don't think you know...I don't know I could ever say...but anyway I'll say it now Bob that I love you buddy, always have, always will, and proud to say it to the world buddy. You were you are an incredible man...love you with all my heart and soul...don't want to let you go Bob. It's killing me. From the depths my pa, my buddy Bob. Please hear me...I miss you so too much. I want you back Bob. Can't you please come back? It's too difficult without you...oh my, why, oh my lil Bob. Please help...please buddy talk to me. Goodnight for now lil Bob.
Hello buddy...missing you. Tomorrow you will call ahead, you'll come by, we'll drive around and find a good place to eat. So Bob, I will await your call, you'll drop by. Then we'll figure out where we're going to go. I'll await your call tomorrow. You won't forget. I'll be here Bob, waiting...waiting on a Friend. Goodnight Bob.
Thinking about you at the moment Bob. Actually you are on my mind every minute. This is difficult Bob...so difficult so. How am I to deal with go on with this thing this horrible dreadful sad thing? Tell me Bob. Please. I will still give you the shirt off my back...do what you ask. From the deep Bob...from my guts...I will always take care of you. You are my hero, soldier boy.
Hello tonight lil Bob. Just hoping you'll drive uo to visit. Take your time. I'll wait quite some time yet buddy. No hurry, whenever is fine. I'll be here Pa. I'll just keep watching, waiting. You'll show like you always promise. I love you buddy...love you man, Have a goodnight my papa....oh my...oh my.
Hello lil buddy Bob. I can't let this night go by without wishing you well wherever you may be. If there is a hereafter I know you are in a good place with love and happiness all around you. And my hope is such that you hear me, that you understand how greatly you were/are loved, valued, and needed here...and how tragically you are missed. I wish you had told me your final intentions, however, you knew I would have deterred you, of course, with all my humanity and love for you my great buddy. I have to wonder, Bob, if you even understood I hero worshipped you. Well, I did buddy. You were, again, my Savior. You helped me through the most tragic time in my life. The irony in that is you've become again, the most tragic time in my life. What do I do now Bob? I'm all alone again. Please buddy, tell me what to do, because I don't know...I just don't know buddy. Bye for now lil Bob...as always...from the depths buddy. Love is the only thing that will save us lil Bob...and all humanity...only love.
Hello buddy. Just sitting here alone...all so sad, all of it and everything... where does anything make sense...just day after day,,,nothing...no one...what's a soul to do...I get all that...I live it...it's so difficult, wearisome, tiring, aimless, loveless, a seemingly uncaring world. Nowhere to go, no one to care, no one to turn to. But...but I was here...I was here buddy. I guess you just didn't know...or perhaps in my failing, I neglected to make it understood. I was here for you...I feel I failed to save you, this wonderful person, you Bob. I didn't fully understand your suffering. I feel at fault for not understanding the full, complete depth of your despair. And you were a quiet man some. I didn't know all your thoughts. You totally shocked me, shook my world...going away without a sound. You just slipped quietly away. Not saying a word...no goodbye...and because...I think you believed no one cared. You were wrong lil buddy. I'll always care. You impressed yourself upon my soul. You are loved my buddy, Robert Miller, sir. Soldier on buddy. I'll never, ever forget...never.
Hello lil buddy Bob. It's also important for your family, and for your grandchildren to know, where your heart was at in your last days...weeks. Your family, Bob, needs to know that while you were here in my home visiting, that you wanted the grandchildren to have cookies and chips, treats. You wanted to treat them...so we got the treats for them. Everyone should need to know that that heartfelt thought was in your mind, Bob, in your heart to treat Your little ones. Bob you were and are a kind, loving sweet old man. I'm saying this just that everyone should know, as I know, that we have lost a great heartfelt guy, Bob, you buddy. It's just things, burdens, who knows all that you carried and suffered, perhaps military ptsd...I can't speak to it all. I just know I'm still in shock, grief-torn, and lost without your companionship lil Bob. I loved you like a father...and always will. You will always be a part of me...a treasure...from the depths lil Bob. Please don't forget me. I will never forget you lil gentleman.
Hello lil Bob. Just want you to know I'm thinking about you. Bye for now.
Hello lil Bob. How are you tonight buddy? I'm still watching for you buddy, still looking out for you Pa.
Hello Bob. Im thinking of you today. I still struggle with the loss...your death. I don't know could I have done one something extra action, expression that would have made a difference? I feel I failed, that there was one thing more, something more I could have should have done, said. If there were something Bob, that I overlooked, please, please forgive me buddy. I am forever scarred by this Bob. I suffer with you now. I understand you...I get it Bob...I totally...poor buddy....Im so sorry. Talk to you later lil Bob...from the depths of my soul old lil Bob. I get it. So so sorry...
Hello Bob. Another night is upon us. I shoveled the snow from your parking spot hoping you may still drive up. I still watch for your truck. I wanted to talk to you more about trust. You know I offered you my trust. And I know you had big issues with trust because you felt you had been betrayed by those closest to you. You felt that going forward you could no longer trust anyone. And talk is cheap I'll grant you that. But Bob I could see easily into your soul...and you are a good good man. So if you could have had a little more time to push aside the treachery you had experienced...I would have shown you-you could trust me, apart from the world. I would have shown you-you could trust in me to look out for, take care of you, not let any harm come to you. This all simple for me to pour out, to flow forth to allow it to envelop you, so that you begin to feel trusting once again. All in the name of love Bob. You gave to me, therefore I was completely motivated to return it.
Hello lil Bob. You are in my thoughts and in my heart. You made a great impression on me. I wont forget. Hear me now Bob even as I shout into the skies again tonight. " I love you Bob. Please hear me buddy. I miss you terribly". I'm having too much, so much heartache. I lost my old buddy, then I lost you my buddy. It's killing me Bob. I so wish you were here. I have more things I want to discuss with you, and I know you had more to talk about too. Anyway, have a goodnight lil Bob. Hopefully you hear me. We will talk again. From the deep lil Bob. You are forever loved.
Hello tonight buddy lil Bob. Let's just go sailing buddy...you and I. Come, let's go my good friend. Let's just have some fun in the sun. We've got to have some fun now okay? Here we are right where you love to be. Let's go sailing my great friend. I love you Bob. You are so cool buddy, a special guy. Come on man, let's go okay? Yeah buddy, you and me right now. yeah buddy, let's go. It's going to be great lil Bob.
Hello lil Bob. I hope you are well tonight. I want to thankyou sincerely for keeping me company and helping me through the death of my close friend. You gave me the great hope that there are still possibilities in this life...that one can still find happiness and reason to go on. You will be and are remembered by me as the wonderful great guy as you have lived. I will always remember you as you have lived. How you died is a thing in itself. alone; regardless. It simply was your time to go. I respect that totally buddy.....but how you lived was a great, wondrous thing. I will always have the utmost love and respect for you. You had a great life. But most importantly you chose to spend your last months helping me from dying of loneliness. You helped me lil Bob, much more than you know. I was dying inside and you came around...and you Saved me Bob...you didn't know it but you Saved me, pulled me from the depths of Hell. I Will Never Forget You...for that my Great Friend. I love you lil Bob, Forever. I Will Remember you, Bob Miller. My best best best Buddy. You are loved always...Bye for now lil Bob. I'll talk to you later, okay...from the depths buddy.
Hello Lil Bob...just want to tell you I hope you have a good night. I'm thinking about you buddy. Wish you were here.
Hello Bob. It's Sunday and you didn't come over again. I miss you man. It's very difficult to accept you won't be coming back. I don't want to accept it. It's killing me.
Hello Bob. I'm lighting this candle tonight in the hope that somewhere out there in the vast unknown you will see this light and know that you were a light unto this world, that you were loved and admired, that you are sorely, terribly missed. I am so so sorry for your tremendous pain and suffering you were having to bear until it all became too much. You were so strong, courageous, to the very end. So strong, so resolute... such a strong lovely man I shall not see again nor let slip quietly into the night. I have and will continue to shout into the skies that I love and miss my buddy Bob Miller. I love you and miss you my great buddy, Robert Miller. Soldier on my buddy. You are loved.
My buddy. Im so sorry I wasn't able to help you more. I did my best buddy out of love. You were my best friend, a light in the night and you will never know what you did for me by being my friend, my father, my confidant. You were special. It's so sad that you didn't realize how important you were to some of us, how much you were loved and needed. You are missed more than you could have ever known. So so sad Bob that you didn't know and you left the way you did. You were loved Bob Miller. You were seriously loved and needed. Youve left behind grieving people that loved and needed you buddy. I will always love you and remember you as one of the great guys.
You were loved my friend, and will never be forgotten. You were a candle in the darkness. I won't forget.